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what an utterly awful terrible no good day.
and none of it had to do with work. my job is actually going swimmingly for the first time in months.
anywho- it’s over.. at least for now. the rest of tonight calls for a j, a beer, a book and music.
the more i work in IT, the more i understand the Internet and how truly magnificent this thing is.
i love working remotely. i saw this q&a with jason silva where (at some point in those 27 minutes) he refers to his iphone as an extension of the brain but i’ve applied that mode of thinking to my daily work schedule. if it can be done remotely, it is done remotely and BOOM my hands are moving a cusor possibly thousands of miles away. and yes, it is inconsequential tasks but holy shit- it’s kind of amazing.
it’s been ~7 months since i stopped drinking soda.
it’s been 2 months since i quit smoking cigarettes. (ok i had one about a month ago but i hated it)
what’s next, video games?
- one third of me: I want a relationship so much, relationships are so cute
- one third of me: sex sex sex I want sex fuck relationships lets be slutty lol
- one third of me: fuck everyone I hate people kill yourselves
pre-pre-sxsw 2011 post (but not really(but really))
hey there guyz. it’s me, taylor. i’m trying to talk to all of yall right now.. yes, even you. one of my precious, precious followers. a random lurker who is prob thinking “wtfuckisthis?” right about now.. all of you. each of you.
first off, to end this ramble: it’s good to be back. i’ve slowly started to ease back into the lava fuckpit we lovingly refer to as tumblr.. and i didn’t know how much i missed it until i snapped out of lazy* mode and started to motherfuckin TUMBL!!
you know how they say you don’t really miss something till it’s gone? i mean, yes sometimes that is true. but i didn’t know how much i missed getting on here until i came back. falling back in love with things is commonplace if you really think about it: movies. albums. bands. clothes. video games. restaurants. drinks. people.
now.. i could very well be a tad bit more nostalgic than the normal 22 year old. but i love that about myself. i won’t apologize for not automatically abandoning what may now be considered uncool/embarrassing/tacky/immature/dated/stupid. if i had a moment with something, chances are i will crack a smile when it pops back in my life.
and so, with tumblr back in my life, i’m smiling. and i wanted to thank yall for putting up with my insanity. this is an amazing outlet for me and i find it incredibly special that even one person pays any attention to this. so.. thanks.
but to tell you the truth- i started this post with something in mind that’s only slightly related. where i wanted to end up was saying this:
friends- if you are in austin and you’re even remotely interested in hanging over sxsw I AM SO DOWN. i promise i’ll only cut off a small amount of your hair. i was just thinking about the last internet friend i actually met IRL. and it was when i met someone in my world of warcraft guild at a college football game… this needs to not be the last human connection i make via the interwebz.
there are SO MANY GOOD FREE SHOWS TO SEE. most are 21+ sooo sorry to all you random 15yo british chicks that follow me………… but really- money is not a valid excuse.
so. come on, it’ll be fun!
*can it even be considered a ramble if that’s what you start with? idontknow. **hahahaha even my fingers were laughing when i was typing that. “lazy shall know be defined as the lack of frequent posting on tumblr.” rofl.
i feel good.
i feel like i’ve got some self confidence for the first time in a while.
what does it mean when you aren’t timid in social situations but can’t stand being alone?
it means, among other things, that you are unhappy.
and its a cycle that ultimately needs to be broken.
i am responsible for my own happiness and well being- not for anybody else’s. and i, thereby, cant expect anybody else to provide me any sort of long lasting happiness.
i have to be the source of my own motivation. my willingness to get things done. my focus. my goals…. my happiness.
it’s all too easy for me to deflect personal issues in the name of ‘helping’ others. but in reality, its stunting their growth as much as it is mine.
i have this deep-seeded need to feel needed. its so easily fulfilled by trying my best to make the people i care about happier. but situational gratification is never a long-lasting solution. and it’s taken me a while to admit that.
you can only change yourself and how you react to things.
this is me trying to do that.
how to gain followers
- don’t post anything for about a week
well, that’s what just happened. i think i’ve gained more than if i actually would have been posting my usual assortment of shit.
anyway, hello! hope yall (yeah, i’m texan) don’t take this as me being conceited or anything like that… i’ve kinda been out of sorts recently and haven’t had much reason/motivation to post anything. hopefully that’s changing.